I'm writing this past my


I'm writing this past my self-imposed (OK - Lesley demanded it!) watershed of 7pm as I have just had a fun day 'nursing' Connor who has suddenly become ill in a matter of minutes.

He's OK for the moment, but every now and again we go into 'panic stations' and seem to spend an hour or two on sheer adrenaline as he starts to turn blue or 'brings up' blood from his stomach. I tell you - it's not nice, but I don't expect that he has much fun, either!

I've said it many times before - but I could easily have vegetated in front of the TV tonight - as I had a ready-made 'excuse' because he was unwell. But HEY - I refuse to kid myself. I'm as serious about my own success as I am about my family. Just because Connor has been ill doesn't give me the 'right' to kick-back and laze around. Excuses are easy to find, and easy to use. Reasons why are more difficult to find - but so much more valuable when they really mean something.

Writing this is now part of my chosen life - so it will be done in the same way that Connor will be cared for. My 'work' will only suffer when I have absolutely no reason to leave my family commitments to do it. At the moment I can only think of two cases where this will happen - hospital stays, and vacations. Any other 'excuse' isn't good enough!