Why You Could Be Wishing For The Wrong Thing


It's true that you don't miss something until it's gone.

We are going away on vacation on Wednesday...and this afternoon we took Connor to the respite home where he will be staying whilst myself, Lesley and Katie are away.

It's impossible to take him with us because of all of his machinery...like oxygen tanks...and his other medical stuff - he really wouldn't enjoy the experience - and we wouldn't really be taking a vacation! lol

Connor benefits from the one-to-one attention he gets from the nursing and care staff at the respite home...Katie benefits from the one-to-one attention from her parents...and Lesley and I get a chance to have some sleep!

But...

This evening...the atmosphere in our house has changed.

- There's no constant humming sound of Connor's oxygen concentrator in our hall.
- There's no set times that things have to be done or medicine to be given.
- There's no worry about whether he looks ill or not.

As Katie just said - "I miss my brother already!"

And so do I, too.

Just last night a 2 a.m. I was cursing about how frustrating it is having a special needs child who spends most of the night awake. This evening I wish he were here.

Be careful what you wish for...because most of the time, if it comes true...you might find that you were wishing for the wrong thing!

Our challenges make us into the people we are...when they are taken away...a little bit of us is taken away, too.

Night, night Connor. xxx